Saturday, June 24, 2006
as you all can see.. i've kinda forgotten about this blog of mine... hahaha.. well. im back to update it!!
it's the 24th of June already.. i guess it's been almost two months now that i haven't been updating? okie... so here's how my life have been...
WORK: so it's close to 2 months now that ive been working in NTUC bishan ccc. i thought my life would be easier cos it's so close to home and my pay is definitely higher than my previous working place. but im wrong.. im totally wrong.. work has been crazy, suddenly my work load has piled up till i cant breath... it's till the point that i wanted to quit and let go of everything... it's like sitting in a room helpless and watching your passion for somthing being burnt away bit by bit.. and that is definietly not what i want. But then i found God.. honestly, i was working for the sake of working.. but i didnt put all my heart in it.. and then people ard me reminded me why im doing this.. that's cos i had the passion for children. and God wouldnt put me through something i cannot accomplish.
SCHOOL: it's school break for me... but im starting school this tuesday.. assignments are a killer.. and im striving to get the best for every assignment. But can i do it? with work and all i dont really have the time.. every nigh, after i finish up my work.. i dont really have time for sch assignments. i usually have to either stay up till really late or get up really early in the morning to do them. sigh... im not getting enough sleep at all... if you take a look at me now. i have panda eyes.
LEISURE: okie... to refresh your memory.. ive started dancing classes.. so im gonna start on my latin 2 this wednesday.. ive completed cha cha and rumba.. gonna learn samba and jive. dancing is the only time i could really enjoy myself. and actually not think about work and all.. no matter how tired i am i would drag my ass down to dance class and have a ball of a time! at least im doing something i like!
Had like 2 camps during my non- updeting days - CC2 and CC3... love those kids! especially new friends made! HELLO MEL, DIANA, NICOLE!!
okie... so that's my life for you... JANICE IS GONNA START WORK ON MONDAY!! WOOHOO!! yay!!
that was random... aw-right.. aniway.. ima just gonna watch some tv now... (rest day for me today!)
love ya all! *mmmuuuaaawwwccckkks
posted @ 3:25 PM
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Sunday, April 30, 2006
hello all!!!
guess wad.. im very very happy!! wanna know why? yea.. of cos i'll tell you! that's like my whole purpose in coming here to blog right??
okie.. first of all!! i start work at the new centre on 2nd of may!! which is like this tuesday!! so fun!! im soo looking forward to it! can't wait to get to know the children there!! alright... school has been fine too!! everything is going as planned! (well hopefully it is financially.. but i'll survive) anyway... today was rather relax...
i started my day by waking up late!! wahahaha!! i thought i'll be late for school or sumthing cos i have to go collect money and i was right!! wahaha.. i was late foe 15 mins? my very first time being late!! so fun!! ended class at 12 today.. den went to eat with my group! i had chicken rice.. after that we headed back after some discussioin and had our tutorial! we kinda cut cue... wahahaha... so we ended earlier than planned! suppose to end at 5.30 but we can go at 3!! im so glad my lecturer gave the green light to our ideas! yay!!
after tutorial.. me and netta went to sign up for our latin dance class!!! ahh!! ima gonna learn latinm dance! it starts this comin wed!! and both of us got our 2 and a half inch dancing shoes!! hopefully i can balance on them.. but i dont think i'll have a problem cos i can run in heels! haha... i had plenty of fun trying on the shoes!! in the end.. (due to limited sizes and designs) netta and i have to get identical pair of shoes.
i came to a conclusion that net has weird feet!! wahaha... they had to punch holes in order for her to tighten her shoes!! mine was fine.... hehe.
im so happy la!!!! lalalalalaa.... so fun!! cant wait for next week!! can finally learn how to dance latin dance!
okie.. till then. cya!
*faith.
posted @ 2:24 AM
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Monday, April 24, 2006
hello hello hello!!! it's me again!!! okie. so i've been really happy these days!! wahaha.. ive never felt so relax before in my whole entire life! okie... i've officially signed my appointment letter with NTUC childcare.. and im starting next week!! okie... so my life have been smooth sailing for now.. but god knows what will happen in future.. but let's just think about the now!
alrighty! so there's gonna be so many things happening... play assignment, probably ballroom dancing, new working place and ima gonna go clubbing!!! finally of legal age!
guess wad! im so excited i dont know what else to type!!! there's so much happening these day! but i dunt know hoe to put it down!! wahahaha.. i'll update again when im in the right state of mind... wahahahaha...
tata!
posted @ 3:32 PM
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
my life have been going by so fast that i find myself lost and confused. there are so many things happening in my life and i regret... regret having to grow up so quickly, and lead a life that i've never once dreamed about.
the things going through my life has been circling around and around and it's making me dizzy. i want to stop. right now. but i cant! THAT is what is driving me crazy. pictured this, i love my job, i enjoy what ever im doing, but there are aspect in the real world that did not allow me to enjoy wadeva im doing to the fullest. i never once thought that i would be the victim of advantage taking. i am young, still strong, and definitely the youngest... does that mean i MUST and NEED to do everything for everone else? i have my own things to do too you know! the different backstabbing i have been expose to. teachers flaunting their oh so wonderful acting skills infront of the parents yet they reveal their true monstrous self behind their backs. and i pity the little ones. it's so torturing to swallow that fact knowing that i cant do anything about that.
now guess what i opened my gap. and someone is gonna hate me forever for breaking their only rice bowl. okie, so i've been ask to stay and the management is gonna fired a teacher since i cant work with her. well how bout that. but i dont want any of it. ever since i have been treated with extra privilages. it's disturbing. what will others think? it's so unfair to them.
okie... so i dont really know wad to do so i'll just leave it as is it...
the end.
i need a break. i need a change in the environment. i need help. OH GOD! please help.. i need a sign! i need an answer!
posted @ 7:44 PM
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Monday, January 30, 2006
okiee... i've decided to be forgiving from now on... people may say whatever that like to say about me from now on.. i will and MUST FIRMLY belive my stand in whatever i do!
yes.. (i sound so positive... eeks) oh wells... what to do? ive already suffered so much.. what's more suffering somemore? anyway.. the whole world knows my life sucks and believe me.. it does. period. hahahahaha
nono.. i wasnt kidding... im serious... (hello serious!) okie. that wasnt funny.. well i hope whoever is tryiong to read my blog will come back and read what i hafta say.. haha
well.. work was alright. except he fact that im secretly hiding my unhappiness for one of then chinese teacher i work with.. well.. i hope she ONE DAY will understand the oh-so-obvious body signals that i was sending for the last erm.. couple of months? hahaha i know im suppose to co-operate and work nicely with all whoever i work with.. but comon! oh wells... im just gonna finish off with my responsibilities and ONE DAY! find a way to run away from all these! hahahahahaha... but you know what? i dont think it'll work? cos whats keepin me there is the lil' children i teach! their love for you is genuine.. and their innocence just makes you wish your life back into the past. im still wishing... hard...
okie... why am i talking about depressing stuffs? i should be happy! i have people that are willing to stand by my side all the way! and especially gerald... im just crazy about him! =] and definitely GOD. i love him to bits too! mmuuaaawwccckkks! hahahah
alright.. im gonna go do my hair and then to see my godsister!!! haven seen her in ages! think the last time i saw her is last chinese new year? how sad!!! hashahahhahhaha anyway.. gonna see her soon!! happy happy!!
kk.. tata all.. will try and NOT disappear so often...( i always say that dont i?) hahahah
love you. faith...
posted @ 2:26 PM
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hahaha.. i know i know.. it's been TWO whole months since i blogged and believe me.. i haven seen my blog this whole time too... HAPPY NEW YEAR!
anyway im gonna go now.. some asshole burst my bubble in that split second that i typed the last sentance...
adiue
posted @ 2:13 PM
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
im still alive!
dont worry bout me!
love you all... will update soon. oh and try to fix that stupid tagboard of mine. =]
if there's anything at all... just call or drop me a mail!
lotsoflove, rowenafaith
posted @ 12:05 AM
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Monday, November 14, 2005
i was walking home from the bus stop just know and i had a passing thought. but it made me think. basically i felt abandoned for that split second. like i belong no where and nothing to me in the world seems right.
i know that my recent blogs have been depressing. but i just Have to get it out.
you know how ive been given freedom as if im 21 already? well it sucks. i feel totally abandoned. left alone. no one to turn to. earning my own money. in the totally evil world. alone.
well.. then again, i was thinking if this is independence? i learning right? im feeling like this cos of selfish reasons right? like i wanted time for myself. wanted this and wanted that.
okie. so i haven come to a perfect conclusion yet. i guess it a little bit of both? i mean i should just be glad im blessed with life everyday.
anyway, i'll be back. soon. i guess.
love, rowenafaith
posted @ 10:39 PM
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posted @ 10:39 PM
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alright... ive decided. i shall make it a point to update. i know i left this site unattended for a very long time now. im sorry!!
okie, so i have 10 mins to spare, after which i have to go to work.
i have decided that if i wanna reach the top in wadever, i HAVE to work hard enough for it! for example, doing bachelors in 2008. i think that would set things right for me. that is for school of course. as for work, im gonna continue thinking about it.
you know wad is sad? NOT being able to be MY age. im 17 going on eighteen. i have a job. struggling with school. no time for myself. no time to enjoy. WORST. i HAVE NO TIME TO SPEND WITH MY FRIENDS! and i miss them all badly! especially, rebby, pam, merissa and vette! anyway, i always have to ask myself WHY. why am i in this situation? it's all so difficult. and i always have to cry my ass out and then pretend nothing happen the next day. why do i have to mature so quickly? i just dont understand! how i wish i wasnt given this much of a freedom. others might think it's the coolest thing on earth! but heck NO! i have to work for my own living. my own fair share of problems and definitely worries.
Melissa might be right. i may be blessed with this gift. of maturity. to know what im doing and want to do. to have that particular wisdom that will help my younger siblings and myself. it may be difficult. but everyone has a cross to carry and to me, mine could be the biggest one on earth, but think. there might be more out there suffering the same fate as me and their crosses are much bigger, much heavier.
i should start appreciating my life and not waste it away. there are so many out there that are willing to lend me their ears to listen to my prblems. shoulders, when i need it to cry on and their hearts. when i need to know im loved. im not alone. and so are all those that are in the same plight. God has been with us and it's so wonderful to know that.
that's all of my ten mins. im gonna go for now.
love you all out there.
lot's of love - Rowenafaith
posted @ 8:21 AM
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