Monday, November 14, 2005
alright... ive decided. i shall make it a point to update. i know i left this site unattended for a very long time now. im sorry!!
okie, so i have 10 mins to spare, after which i have to go to work.
i have decided that if i wanna reach the top in wadever, i HAVE to work hard enough for it! for example, doing bachelors in 2008. i think that would set things right for me. that is for school of course. as for work, im gonna continue thinking about it.
you know wad is sad? NOT being able to be MY age. im 17 going on eighteen. i have a job. struggling with school. no time for myself. no time to enjoy. WORST. i HAVE NO TIME TO SPEND WITH MY FRIENDS! and i miss them all badly! especially, rebby, pam, merissa and vette! anyway, i always have to ask myself WHY. why am i in this situation? it's all so difficult. and i always have to cry my ass out and then pretend nothing happen the next day. why do i have to mature so quickly? i just dont understand! how i wish i wasnt given this much of a freedom. others might think it's the coolest thing on earth! but heck NO! i have to work for my own living. my own fair share of problems and definitely worries.
Melissa might be right. i may be blessed with this gift. of maturity. to know what im doing and want to do. to have that particular wisdom that will help my younger siblings and myself. it may be difficult. but everyone has a cross to carry and to me, mine could be the biggest one on earth, but think. there might be more out there suffering the same fate as me and their crosses are much bigger, much heavier.
i should start appreciating my life and not waste it away. there are so many out there that are willing to lend me their ears to listen to my prblems. shoulders, when i need it to cry on and their hearts. when i need to know im loved. im not alone. and so are all those that are in the same plight. God has been with us and it's so wonderful to know that.
that's all of my ten mins. im gonna go for now.
love you all out there.
lot's of love - Rowenafaith
posted @ 8:21 AM
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