Wednesday, March 22, 2006
my life have been going by so fast that i find myself lost and confused. there are so many things happening in my life and i regret... regret having to grow up so quickly, and lead a life that i've never once dreamed about.
the things going through my life has been circling around and around and it's making me dizzy. i want to stop. right now. but i cant! THAT is what is driving me crazy. pictured this, i love my job, i enjoy what ever im doing, but there are aspect in the real world that did not allow me to enjoy wadeva im doing to the fullest. i never once thought that i would be the victim of advantage taking. i am young, still strong, and definitely the youngest... does that mean i MUST and NEED to do everything for everone else? i have my own things to do too you know! the different backstabbing i have been expose to. teachers flaunting their oh so wonderful acting skills infront of the parents yet they reveal their true monstrous self behind their backs. and i pity the little ones. it's so torturing to swallow that fact knowing that i cant do anything about that.
now guess what i opened my gap. and someone is gonna hate me forever for breaking their only rice bowl. okie, so i've been ask to stay and the management is gonna fired a teacher since i cant work with her. well how bout that. but i dont want any of it. ever since i have been treated with extra privilages. it's disturbing. what will others think? it's so unfair to them.
okie... so i dont really know wad to do so i'll just leave it as is it...
the end.
i need a break. i need a change in the environment. i need help. OH GOD! please help.. i need a sign! i need an answer!
posted @ 7:44 PM
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